Hummidity is killing me.

I finally updated my link by removing some dead links and updating some of the URL, well thanks to my boredom la else i probably would have just left it the way it is until god knows when only i'll decide to change. I was looking at changing my template also and adding a few stuff here and there when i finally decided against it cause it seemed too much of a hassle. Anyway is it just me or does anyone feel that the weather recently has been so terribly hummid? Crap man i can't get by the day without taking at least three showers in the span of like minutes? hahaha....no but seriously its been so terribly hot lately its not even funny. When you can start sweating under a shaded area with a rotating fan something is definately wrong la right.

My room is a very very stuffy place and everything is like cluttered everywhere since i never bothered to finish my room cleaning that i started sometime late last year. To make the situation my room window is permanently closed, well not by design...but by choice, hahaha. With my desktop running 24/7 and me sitting in front of my monitor it can get really hot after a while...remember no aircond just a table fan that isn't even blowing at me. So this new change in the weather pattern is affecting my comfort when i'm using my pc in my room....actually not only when i'm using my pc la but also when i go out and other stuff la. It sucks cause the moment you get out of a shower you feel like jumping right back in cause you'll start to feel all sweaty and sticky in a matter of minutes. So how to makes things feel better leh?

Getting into Mode

Damn i finished all the materials i have to watch already...seeing how things are i guess i won't have anything to do for today cept to play WoW already. I've been playing less and less lately to adjust my 'lifestyle' in preperation for when i start working, well i don't think its gonna be such a problem since i actually prioritise going out over playing WoW...erm, most of the time la anyway. As each and every passing day goes by i get more and more worried over what is to come, for one i'm afraid of getting out of my comfort zone which i've been so accustomed. I mean i've been this way and been doing the same thing for as long as i can remember, problem is i know i have to move on.

I once told my friend that if i managed to convert how i think and how act in WoW and apply it to real life it would be a good thing. So i sat down and thought what drove me in the game and i found out the biggest reason why i was so determined was because i have a goal...i've been stuck in my world for so long that i guess you could say i forgot how things worked on the outside. Realising the reason i have already set out some goals for me to achieve but right now its still kinda hard because i still know so little of what i have to do and so forth. But everything has to start somewhere la right...better with whatever little goals i have then none at all.

So what happens to everything else when i start working? Well i guess i'll try to do everything that i still do now just that bring it down to a minimal. WoW especially have been a big part of my everyday for almost a year now, and i still have things i want to do in the game...I'll just do what i can and take a step at a time, if some time down the road i feel that the amount of time i'm putting in isn't worth what i'm paying then i guess i'll just call time on the game...everything has to come to an end.

Hard Gay

Before i start todays post i would like to shout out to the birthday boy today who happens to be a really good friend of mine...you know who you are, well have a good one aight... Happy Birthday man.

Ok so whassup with this hard gay thingy...well i first heard about it on monday night when i was playing WoW, and some guild members were going this guy is hard gay that guy is hard gay. I didn't bother asking them about it though, but i was really wondering WTF is up with this hard gay thing. So later that day i went out for supper and i was asking if anyone knew what the hell is up with all this hard gay talk that so many people seem to know about. Suffice to say the whole table was pretty ignorant about it as they haven't heard it being mentioned in anyway cept for two other guys, one who was clueless to the meaning and another who happens to know exactly what its all about. The next day (yesterday) he send me a link on youtube which happens to be an episode of some sort of hard gay...This guy is so fucking hillarious and so i thought i'd share it with you.

In Seven Days

In exactly seven days from now i will for the first time no longer have full control over my freedom, erm wait....no la not exactly for the first time la, but i won't be able to do anything i want to do anymore. And most importantly i won't be able to brag to people that i can sleep and wake up at any time that i want. As a matter of fact i'm probably gonna get that from some people, sigh karma sure sucks doesn't it. If you still haven't the slightest clue of what i'm talking about well basically i'll have to start work in about seven days time.

I've already notified the officers in my guild in WoW that i will not be as active anymore due to me starting work. And depending on the workload and what not i may even stop playing. In more then one way you could say that i have mix feelings about working. I've always been comfortable where i'm at right now and i don't really want to change, although i do know that i'm actually in a very bad position la. But on the other hand i also know that i need to start working and for once stop slacking and get my act together. Breaking it down its more like the choices i have are 1) doing the right thing and 2) doing what i want to do.

Well one thing though i don't really have to make it sound so dramatically serious la, because my job scope right now is mainly.....training. Yes i'm going for training first, so i don't know what i have to do yet besides the training. I'll keep you guys updated when i find out so don't you worry about it. But the biggest problem would actually be the transport to work...as far as i know there isn't a damn bus that goes there from my place, got la but its ridiculous to take a bus to get there....very very big round waste of time, blah blah blah. So in terms of public transport the most viable choice would be taking cab to work. Wah with the pathetically low salary that i'm getting i'd probably die first if i were to take cab to work everyday ler. So most likely i'll be rotating usage of the car with my dad...i guess we'll really have to wait and see how things go la in seven more days.

Up and Down weekend

This weekend was a little bit of a mixed up thing, its all started on Saturday where i did nothing but WoW. Because my tennant went back to his hometown i could make use of his comp, which is faster and his line is also without lag unlike mine. I played for about 6 hours non stop, with the only breaks that i had was stopping to go to the toilet other then that i was sitting right in front of the PC the whole time. And after 6 hours of sitting there i was sitting there for fucks, i wasn't invited to raid without a reason and i was disappointed. But i'm not gonna jump to conclusions just yet cause i don't know whats going on and what not, so i had better talk to those people in game to get a better understanding before i start firing at just about everyone.

Yesterday was not too bad though, i thought i'd be a good idea to just go out and do whatever to get my mind of things that i've been so stressed about lately. So i went out for lunch with my buddies, after that we went to watch a movie and then have a drink at starbucks...Hrm, i think i'm going back to my old routine, last time every weekend was a starbucks day pretty much the same for the past 2-3 weeks now. Went to watch ultraviolet, which in my honest opinion isn't good at all...if you watch it for purely entertainment value and non-stop action then i guess its ok but i still think its not worth the RM10 that i paid. To sum the movie up the movie has like 5 minutes of story and everything is action...yeah that means no story, well not really la anyway.

In total i kinda overspend yesterday about RM40++, for lunch, movie, starbucks, dinner and ciggies. Ouch now that i think about it, that kinda hurts...oh well, looking on the brightside at least i wasn't stressed out over anything which is good cause that was the plan anyway at the expense of my wallet la, but who cares. But one thing that i thought that i should mention though, i was really looking forward to reading a particular book that someone was suppose to bring yesterday...unfortunately due to some unforseen circumstances, that someone forgot to bring it along, and to top it off i didn't even get a chance to meet up...so i guess that was the days low key, hahaha....wah i make it sound so bad, but no la it wasn't really that bad la as a matter of fact its far from it, just in comparison to everything else that happenned that was the lowest point of the day. Now whats the plan for today.

Something Freaky

Since i'm in no mood to blog because of the recent events i decided to just tell my dear readers about the freakiest thing that happened to me yesterday...Think of it as my way to stop thinking about it (getting very angry is bad...cannot sleep). So anyways my desktop is usually on 24/7, with the occasional reboots to free up some memory especially with me constantly alternating between WoW and my torrents, that has got to take up a significant amount of resources, and honestly after like two to three days of not rebooting the pc is gonna be slow as hell. Now yesterday before i played WoW i decided to give it a reboot since its been sometime since i've done that, the thing about me is i don't like to hit on the restart button cause it doesn't really free up everything so instead i shut down and wait for as short as 20 seconds before i boot up again. However this time around i thought that i'd take a longer time since i needed to go for a bio break and a ciggy...which all happens in the toilet right which is situated right next to my pc.

I wasn't really looking when i hit the power switch on the desktop so instead i accidentally pressed on the reset button, upon realising my mistake i quickly pressed and hold on the power button to just shut it down instead of booting up and then only to shut it down. And to make sure that the pc was shutdown i waited for all the lights including the indicator light from my monitor to go all off...and after a good 20 seconds it was quiet, all the humming from the cpu fan has died down. So off i went to the toilet to do whatever it is a persons got to do and then i lighted up my ciggarette....i was smoking for about three minutes more or less when i noticed a whirring sound. Now the first thing i thought was who in their right mind would vacuum this early in the morning? I proceeded to dismiss that thought and instead conclude that it was someone using a hairdryer. A few more puffs after i realised that the sound actually sounds a lot like my pc....But i dismissed that thought as well because i was SURE that i turned it off. Right after i offed my ciggy i immediately opened my toilet door to confirm my suspicion...and to my horror, it was my PC that turned on...oh yeah my room door was locked, so who the hell turned on my PC?

So Fucking Frustrating

Horrible day indeed it turned out to be, one of those days when everything just goes wrong and it all started in the morning. I got a call from my aunt (not blood related mind you), to ask about the price of my plane ticket. So i told her that my mom called to tell me to refer to her friends daughter who happens to be working in a travel agency, and the price she gave me was RM2, 900. She also stated that that is the cheapest and blah blah blah. Then my aunt was like 'WAAHHH!!! So expensive, cannot cannot...my friend bought hers at RM2, 500.' So i was just like uh huh...i mean what you want me to say la right, its like so what you're friend got it for that much, you wanna tor tor lan yeh then you ask your friend to buy for me also la. And the she was like 'So how ar?? Aiyah don't go la'. Wah!!!! Seriously what the fuck is your fucking problem wei!!! My mom is sending the money to you to pass to me and you come and say this kinda shit to me right!!!

Well i knew what was gonna happen next already la, it happened before with the car so the same shit is bound to happen again with this. And true enough my mom called a little later after that and for no apparent reason i get a good sounding. Seriously what the fuck did i do wrong!!?? I wanted to go i'd admit that, but i didn't ask for it instead the holiday was offered to me. Now that i'm about to start work only you wanna rush me to do everything...and furthermore i don't actually have a car to move around just in case i have to like pick the ticket up and shit like that, i wasn't the one who delayed thinking of whether i wanna go or not and i get fucked for no fucking reason!!??? What kinda fucking logic is that? And then she goes further and say stuff like if you wanna go then go la....HELLO!!! I start work in a weeks time la for fucks sake!!! Even if i go that would leave me with a 1 week vacation in doing what!!??? Spend three thousand to go somewhere only to see the town then fly back ar!!?? At the end of it its suppose to be my fault, and i honestly don't see how thats working out.

At that very point it time i wanted to smash my phone till there was nothing left (fortunately though...i didn't). If you think thats bad, well it gets worst...i most likely won't get to buy my car now as well...don't ask. Oh yeah i forgot to mention that i haven't slept yet at that time and it was early in the morning, and because of that heated conversation i couldn't go back to sleep. Tried to play some WoW to release some tension and it was worst cause my stupid fucking connection is fucking up on me and i couldn't do shit but just die like a fucking noob. Gawd honestly....its been about 24 hours since the start of the whole thing and i still feel like smashing something to make myself feel better. You know what this really sucks so much that i don't feel like doing shit no more....i don't want to work also, i'll just sit on my lazy ass and rot my life away. At least that way i'll be happy even though i don't get shit that i want. Seriously la, if you don't fucking want me to go or get a car or whatever then you fucking say it....don't say one thing then do the other, it seriously pisses me off. I can't understand sometimes....and now i have no idea what to do.

Pig is me

Man am i stuffed...i think i kinda overate today, now all the air that has been filling up my empty stomach is all coming out, ROFL!!! Well its all good la, after all i have a policy of spending money, and saving on food isn't one of them. I'd go all out on food...Well not entirely la, imagine if i really went all out, hell i'll probably be able to afford about 1 week of meals and then i'm dead due to starvation.

I've probably said this many times, but i'll say it again...I'm not a big guy, i'm actually really small people actually think i'm still in school or something and most likely thats because i'm a short little fucker. But one things for sure, for someone my size i can hold up myself pretty well....Erm, just to make sure we're all on the same page right now we're actually talking about food. But it kinda depends on whether my stomach is in the mood to consume alot.

A friend of mine once said, if there were actually workers in a persons stomach working on burning/digesting whatever you consume...then i would have extremely hard working workers (totally opposite of me). Because no matter how much i eat the food doesn't seem to go anywhere, and its not like i don't want it to but its just how my body works la i guess. I can eat till i bloat up but i'll loose it all in a matter of hours depending on how big i bloat up to.

I didn't get enough sleep today and now i'm bloated because i overate and now there isn't enough oxygen going up to my brain, so i feel soooooo damn sleeeeeepppyyy. Damn i'm such a pig. But looking on the brightside of things it would actually seem that i'd never get fat, although i don't really care what i eat i'm kinda afraid that i might have a high cholesterol level. I really should go for a medical check up...after i die of heart attack, and the smoking that i'm doing isn't helping me one bit la obviously...Oh well i'll probably forget all bout it when i wake up. Uhhhhh....i think i should really go to sleep.

Hard to make friends?

Apparently i'm a really easy person to get along with, or so i've heard la. People often tell me that after speaking to me or meeting me they feel like they've known me for a very long time, and this often comes from the people of the opposite sex...its strange really cause i don't understand why. The hardest part for me to even try to understand is i don't feel very easy when meeting or talking to people for the very first time...why leh? Well i guess mostly cause i'm a little shy la. I also tend to be very obnoxious and i use an arsenal of vulgarity in normal conversation once i get to know you better (you can ask wimal...lol).

This isn't the first time i've heard it of course, i've heard it twice from the same person and once from another and then from another and then....well you get the picture la right. But i have to admit that i've have change abit since last time when i was extremely shy and i don't talk whatsoever when i meet new people. At least now a days i make an effort to say something, imagine all the courage i had to build up just to say something. I guess the reason for that is because i always want to make a good impression, although i have absolutely no idea how much of an impression i always leave behind but what matters is i tried la i guess.

You could say that i'm not really good at making friends i tend to be a bit reserved in a crowded room filled with strangers. In most cases i would just do whatever it is i have to do there and then immediately excuse myself and proceed to anywhere where i can have more breathing space and be more at ease. However i do make an effort to meet up with friends i guess you could say that its part of my 'building a friendship' plan that i have. I open up easily but i hide my emotions dearly...Seeing all this i still don't understand why people would say that, can you figure out why?

Incoming Holiday

Ok i got my confirmation for my holiday already...well sort of la anyway, now i'm just like looking out for a good price on the air ticket and also checking out on doing my visa and getting that done as soon as possible, if all goes well i want to be flying this week or at least this weekend of early next week. Because any longer then that then i'll be fucked....i'll also probably have to call my boss to ask if i can postpone when i actually start work because what am i gonna do in australia for 1 week, thats not even called a holiday man. Speaking of which i haven't heard any new about the contract yet so i guess its ok la. I also have to go open or check on my most likely inactive bank account because thats where my salary is gonna go. Oh well looks like i won't have much time for anything already...i hope everything works out though. On another note i was also told by my mom to go look for a car, so i am still gonna get a car. Considering that car makers have slashed their prices (although thats what it looks like on the surface which isn't really the case) i guess its a pretty good time go get a car la. Hopefully i won't have to wait too long la...Hrm, thats a lot i gotta be doing. Well better get to it then.

Gonna start working.

Stupid crap line giving me so much problems that i'm finding it hard to blog these days...Apparently streamyx in some areas are having some problems and those places can't even access the internet. So maybe its not so bad in my case, but really the performance of my internet lately has left me to question if i really should be paying for this kind of service. I think i'll wait a little while more before i decide on what to do about it.

Anyway, yes i have a job already...Although i am still waiting for the contract to be ready so i can sign it. I'm not getting much, as a matter of fact i'm getting like peanuts but what matters the most to me is that i'm gonna be sent for training. I'll be handling different platforms which can be frequently seen in enterprise solutions so i'll mainly be training of different types of OSs first, at least that what i've been told.

Too be honest though i haven't the slightest idea what my job scope is all i know is i'll be in training for awhile. I guess depending on how i perform during the training, the company would then probably assign something for me to do la. Hahaha, i don't even know what time are my working hours...well i don't think its gonna be so bad la, training what right. Where got people train in the middle of the night. Now i hafta figure out how the hell to get to the office.

Oh yeah i'll start working in the beginning of May, but i still want to go on my holiday which leaves me with very very little time. However i can't really do anything about it until i get word from my mom which i obviously haven't heard from her. Sigh, if this still manages to get through then this would most likely be my shortest holiday trip ever....man this is beginning to suck. Well i guess its better then nothing la right. Now i have other things to worry bout like transport....sigh hope i figure out something soon.

Short post

Could it have been my connection or maybe it was the server...well i wouldn't really know now would i. I'm referring to bloggers server actually...I wanted to blog last night but i was really really tired because i only slept for about 30 minutes, so while i was waiting for the page to load i got too sleepy and gave up waiting which led to my decision to skip yesterdays post. But then again my connection has been really bad which isn't really new anymore since i've complained about it countless of times. Anyway i would like to inform everyone that i will be working starting next month, yes thats right i won't be a slacker no more...Well at least i'm being forced to not be a slacker. Ok ok, really really tired right now so i think i'll leave the rest for tomorrow.

Nothing

Boring weekend...i did absolutely nothing, and thats N O T H I N G. I just sat at home and played WoW had an extremely late dinner on both Saturday and Sunday because i didn't have any transport to get around and all my other friends were playing WoW. The there were only free at about close to midnight...Well since they were all busy playing i thought that i'd just play the game as well la right then after they finished we could all go out and eat. So my only meal of the day was at 1am on Saturday or 2am on Sunday, no wonder la i'm like underweight and i'm a scrawny little bugger. Considering my weird eating habits how not to, like my friend once said la....'Eugene ar? he don't eat no difference, he eat also no difference.' I warn you first ar don't think i small small all means i cannot eat wan ok. Because when i'm hungry you would think that i haven't seen food in a long while....thats how much i eat.

But the whole of last week was filled with unexpected meetings with some old friends, like i've mentioned in my earlier post. It actually continued throughout the week and that includes the weekend la, but the weekend encounter was a little too short to really catch up. Anyhow a very dear friend of mine popped up for a drink and we were all chatting and poking fun at each other laughing and what not, for as long as i've known this good pal of mine i never really knew a whole great deal about her...Until that day la of course, although i still don't know a whole great deal about her i found out a little something more personal la. So in the span of seven days i was able to get to know two friends better...Maybe even a whole lot better. Because of what i now know i finally am able to understand why they did this and why they did that and blah blah blah. Well its not like i lost sleep thinking about it or anything like that but it kinda just popped up. Gawd i hope this week won't be as boring as the previous week.

I dream of Kung Fu

I've been having some weird ass dreams again recently...Now i can't exactly remember the last time i had these kind of dreams but i remember that it was sometime last year and it was something about me riding a superbike all over town. I thought it couldn't get any weirder then that....until now. I had this dream right where i was like some Kung Fu master....And not just any kind of kung fu master, but the most bad ass mofo in the world, i'm like the champion of champions la and there was no one that was my match. Or at least thats how the dream goes anyway....right, so anyway the only person with almost equivalent power with me was suppose to be this girl which was my fiancee (in my dream la ok). But we have like our own factions and blah blah blah....Well i'll cut the story short but in the end i die. Now how does an invincible all conquering kung fu master die? Well i actually killed myself....killed myself out of love apparently. And when i killed myself (in my dream) thats when i woke up.

I wonder what could i all mean...is my subconscious trying to tell me something, its like such a cryptic message and i'm suppose to decypher the damn thing. Then again i could be exaggerating la and its just what i said la....a dream. They were actually a few others following that particular dream, but it was no where as weird compared and some of them were pretty scarry actually. Not really scarry like a horror movie scarry, but more like you don't want things like that to happen and erm....ah i'm sure you know what i mean la right. Sigh too bad i can't remember if my kung fu dream got like any fighting scenes...hahaha, that would be so nice to remember, lol. Like all those chinese kung fu series that we see on TV....all the added effects and stuff, its so fake but i don't know i kinda like it. Like what one of my buddy said about me, Eugene can't pronounce any chinese words normally....it always gets screwed up somewhere, but when it comes to all those kung fu moves he pronounces it perfectly!

Unexpected Encouters

The weekend and the beginning of the week (to be more specific...last night) was filled with unexpected encounters. I don't mean that in a bad way it was actually very good and kinda refreshing too...being able to meet up with some old old friends, they've been so busy that they hardly have time to go out for a drink these days. Well i guess its all good that they're getting successful and all while i sit down on my lazy ass and rot my life away....sigh. Sad so say though it was only for a short time, just a quick chat then we had to say our goodbyes.

However during the weekend i went out with a particular old friend of mine and we chatted for a considerably long time, surprisingly though i think i got tired before he did and by tired i mean i got sleepy. Hrm, thats odd considering that i have this weird sleeping habit (although its mostly been fixed) and he's like working and all. I would have thought that he would be used to his standard sleep early and wake up early times like any other normal person.

One thing i've got to say though, although we've known each other for a considerably long time i have never had a long and serious discussion with him. At least not that i can remember...I mean sure we've had long talks and all that before, but not as long as last week. And to be honest i was glad that it happened...now i know a little bit more about my good buddy, hahahaha!!! It would seem that he has some issues that he has to work out and i hope that whatever advice i was able to give him would assist him to overcome his issues. Speaking of which i think i better start dealing with my own issues....its about time i got it sorted out anyway.

Lazy

My lazy self has set back in...dammit i really hate it when this happens, its like i have so many different selves and they just keep popping up whenever they feel like it. Yes i do think that i have multiple personalities...Right now i'm just waiting for my mom to confirm with me regarding my long awaited holiday. And thats really all i care about right now, i think i so need to get away from here...at least for awhile. By the way does anyone know if i need to get a tourist visa if i wanna do to Australia? Thinking about going to get one is kinda making me not wanna go....hahaha, yes that is how lazy i am right now. But obviously since i so damn wanna go i think i'll just overlook the hassle and get it done so i can relax and enjoy later. Oh well guess i have to ask some friends that have gone there recently to see how to go about getting things done.