I'm very disappointed in you.

Well woman if you're reading this then you'd definately know that i'm talking bout you...A sorta made it a point to not directly put names on my posts, unless its a no big deal kinda thing. So what happened??? I kena FFK...and not just this once, but MANY times and not just this year but MANY YEARS and still running. You know ar if you really did want me to go down and find you...you could have just asked, but nooooo!!! see now you're really pushing it cause i'm already starting to blindly think of booking my ticket to Belfast to haul you're sorry ass out just to catch up. Phew now that that is off my chest, i feel a whole lot better....lol. Well girl you know i'm just kidding right, hehehe.

Yesterday kinda confirm that i really don't have a good start into the new year, why??? Well due to the thunderstorm that we experiencing late yesterday, i could now safely say that my Wireless router modem has been pronounced 'dead'. Yes in the unfortunate event that occured last night i wasn't able to save my dear and loyal friend from certain death. Oh well looks like i have to go shop for a new one....after all gotta move on right, hahahaha!!! But yeah i was so bored because now only one comp can go online at a time (And my tennant was using the line the whole of last night) that i practically slept the entire of yesterday...Gawd i'm such a pig!!! Anyways you guys out there got any suggestions on what to get??? I'm kinda too lazy to do my research...maybe i should get that gaming router since i play so much games...hrm, heard its a bit too expensive though.

So tired and so frustrated

Now just when i thought that i had nothing to do, something decides to pop up...how frustrating is that? I ended up over sleeping last night because my sleep was interrupted earlier in the day, and just because of that i fuckin ended up waking up at fucking 11...and thats 11PM!! Yeah la i know la i don't do anything mar, so should really bother me mar right....but i didn't get to eat my dinner, was so damn hungry that i had to open my 'Emergency Rations'. Come to think of it i think i'm running a little bit low on them rations...lol. So anyway, i'm already getting a little tired and sleepy but i have to stay awake till about 10 or 11 so that i can wake my tennant up else he won't make it to work (Hrm, maybe i shouldn't bother him...serves him right for staying up until so late, huehuehue...jk :P). At least thats the initial plan la...until just now when my dad told me to wait around the house or be in the house at about 3PM because some guys are gonna come to check on the parquet staircase which has been ruined thanks to some termites. Well at least i think it was termites.

Now how in tarnation am i gonna stay awake until 3PM...i'm already gonna collapse and i'm running out of movies to see. Well there is WoW, but that isn't really gonna help as well because i've almost run out of things to do in game anyway. Sigh think i'll just have to find some way to keep myself awake...i wish i had some caffeine pills with me now, that would really help, hehehe. On to other things...remember i was saying that i had to do a program for my uncle, well i'm really getting a headache over his demands man. He expects me to conjure searching techniques and algorithms out of thin air i tell you...crazy. I mean yeah la i've learnt them before (Although i think i've thrown my notes away...eep) but i never understood the damn thing in the first place how much more implementing them. So now that i've reach a block my brain just decided to switch off and i'm not progressing in the damn program. Looks like i'm gonna be needing help on this one...shit and i swore that i'd never do programming ever again, yeah and look how that turned out, fuck!!!

I am....Juicy???

Everytime my best friend comes back from Australia, i start meeting people that happen to be in Malaysia that i only meet when my best friend is around...Of course i know all this people la, its just i don't meet them otherwise la. So now its kinda like a customary every year meet. So anyway i went out for drinks with my best friend, his girlfriend, a few other friends (that i meet regularly) and one of those 'i only see you once a year kinda friend' which happens to be a girl. Now this girl right she damn not shy wan, from the first time i met her right...i have never heard her say something nice about me, always poking fun at me (Not that i'm really complaining or anything la). So right we were having drinks and shit when someone (can't remember who) asked me what the hell am i gonna be doing after that.

Usually when someone asks me that and i don't have a plan or anything i would normally curl my hand to a fist and start shaking my hand up and down...You know what i mean right hehehe *grin*. But its all in good fun la, but somehow everytime i do that everyone seem to believe me...Why ar??? Oh well, nevermind...Moving along, so this girl was like saying 'Oh yeah i believe you.' and then she went on further and said 'You may be small...But i know you're juicy."!!! WTF!!!??? What does juicy mean??? Is that a good thing or a bad thing??? How can i be juicy, i can't be eaten so how can i be juicy!!??? Oh well it was all in good fun anyway...but i'm still thinking what the hell does that mean?

The Plan for 2006

Ok here are the few things that i need to get done this year...so yeah you could say that this is my new years resolution.

• Need to graduate my sorry ass.
• Need to get a job.
• Need to stop smoking (Same as last year...don't worry you'll see this again next year).

And thats practically about it...i concluded that making ridiculously long resolutions are always bound to failure. Too many things to do, too much of a hassle...so not me, lol. The first two is definately gonna happen, i just hope that i don't have to wait to long. Of course there is that every persistent car issue that needs my attention as well, but i think right now i'll just let it be and deal with it later. Eventually i'm still gonna get a car anyway, i'll just have to wait and see what car i'm gonna get....slowly but surely.

Hrm, does anyone else thinks that this year started kinda gloomy. Its been raining for what seems like forever, well not that i'm really complaining. I'd rather it be like this then hot and sunny, i can't stand the heat...I'm kinda like a vampire, the sun is like my ultimate weakness. But whatever it is i'd still have to say its rather gloomy, rain rain rain...makes you wanna sleep sleep sleep. Oh well, one things for sure...i'm sure as hell gonna start bitching when the dry season comes.

The Year in Review

Lets see...well if new years were such a big deal, then lets just say that mine started in a really crappy manner and it really turned out to be a really crappy day. But i think i'll believe more in the lunar calendar, after all got all those feng shui thing about your sign clashing with other signs and the elements and blah blah blah...well it actually sounds more believable. Besides Chinese New Year always makes a better new year, cause no matter what it'll definately be happier. Simply because we have a really fantastic dinner (well most of the time anyway), and before the night is over we get our Ang Pow's now seriously who doesn't like that.

So i decided to go out on new years after all, for a drink anyway. And since it was suppose to be a celebration i thought that we'd just go to starbucks and splurge a little. Coincidentally we met a few friends while we were hanging out there...and so our table started to get bigger and bigger, adding one to the left and adding another to the right. Hell if the rest came any earlier we would have ended up with like five to six tables in total. I didn't really bother with the countdown, so i was counting down in the car. Saw some fireworks while making our way outta my house, and on the way to starbucks as well. So lotsa friends chit chatting on new years day having good ol coffee...now what could be so possibly bad???

For starters my mom had finally agreed to buy me a car, and i really really really liked the car. But you see the car has to be funded by my uncle, and he was like 'eh don't buy that car la, not good la that car...you buy that car ar then you won't be able to sell next time, and besides thats a playboy car.' blah blah blah blah blah...Well fuck you too. Seriously la, what makes you think i'm gonna buy a second hand car only to sell it off in like what 1 year? You crazy ar? As if i had so much many to throw around. Hello i only have a limited amount of funds wei!!! what fucking car you expect me to get? With the amount of money i have any car that i can buy would have no value the moment i want to sell it, so what the fuck is the big deal of what car i wanna get...its all gonna be the same thing and i can't sell it anyway. Gawd can you believe the stupidity of some people.

The after that there was the news of a death in my buddy's family, now that was just utterly shocking. I didn't know anything, never heard of anything about it and suddenly death decides to come and claim lives. But thats the way life is nothing you can do about it...like i once said, the one fate that is shared by all man is death. Yeah so theres nothing i can do about it but nevertheless it is sad news and i can't help but to feel down because of it.

The supposed one good news of the year which eventually didn't turn out right wasn't really any good either...why??? Well because it didn't turn out right...lol. So what was that suppose to be? Well my graduation of course. Because i fucked up...and i mean fucked up big time, i didn't manage to graduate at the end of last year which was planned, but instead i grad sometime in the middle of this year, thanks to all my procrastinating...well i'm to blame for that la, that one i definately agree and i'm not gonna point my finger at anyone else. I should have done what was set out for me, but i didn't and in the end i had to pay the price....no question about it. So yeah, but i still can't help but to feel that its fucked up and i wanna bitch about it, so there you go.

Then there was the part where i wasn't able to quit smoking...hahaha, well yeah i kinda saw that one coming. Although i'd definately quit one fine day, just need to find the right time and circumstances. Don't tell me bout it cause i really really don't wanna hear about what you have to say about my bad habits. Of course you guys would have remembered how i said i had set a goal for myself to achieve in WoW by the end of the month (December 2005) right, well that didn't work out as well. Gawd damn!!! everything isn't working out is it??? We gotta work on that.

Of course the biggest event of the year 2005 was filled with heartache and sorrow, after a long...hrm, make that very long cool down period i came back into the game only to get burned, fortunately though i don't think it was as bad as the last time but i won't lie it still hurt. As a matter of fact it hurt like HELL!!! It hurt so much that i lost all motivation to do anything, and that damn stupid effect has lingered in me till this very day and that really sucks. But once again i'm not blaming anyone but myself and my own stupidity, after all in more ways then one i did bring many of these things unto myself no doubt about that. After carefully analysing most of the situation the biggest culprit of them all is myself and my own short commings. The one thing that really ruined my day on new years was that of all people that i had to bump into i had to bump into the one person i didn't wanna see the most...'Her'! And because of that one reason my entire new year was screwed two times over.

Phew...well, glad i had that off my chest. I think i'll continue tomorrow with my new years resolution, althought i have never really abide by it or anything. Hrm, i wonder why the hell do i even make one? Can anyone out there tell me if there was a single resolution that they have yet fulfilled? If yes, please tell me the secret...Well to sum it all off, another year has passed and everything can begin anew. Hrm, what i really don't understand about that is that why must we start anew after every year. Whats the difference with starting all over after just a day??? Oh well guess we'll have to wait and see.