So how was your new year?

So how was everybodies new year??? Hope it went well...lotsa ang pows and for those who gamble hope you won lots too. As for me? Well i had pretty much the same new year as i did last year...and the year before...and the year before...and, it goes on and on. I never do much on new years actually, just eat and drink and thats about it. I'd say that this year is the first year i didn't go club for new years as well as chinese new year, and i think its a bit of a shocker to me. Oh well not that it matters anyway...although i'd dare say i kinda miss hitting the clubs every now and then.

Basically i slept all through the first 3 days of chinese new year....yes thats right, sleep!!! Been waking up really late, and sleeping really late. Like now for instance, i haven't slept since last night...And by gawd i'm sleepy. Problem is i can't exactly go to sleep right now, mainly cause there is this HUGE guy thats sleeping on my make shift bed (couch) not only that he's also sleeping on top of my blanket. How la to move the fella to take my blanket so i can sleep somewhere else, i definately won't be able to sleep in the same room as him...The guy has got stereo surround i tell you, i can even hear him from here (front the hall to my room...doors open la of course). Oh well looks like i've gotta find some way to entertain myself till he wakes up so i can go to sleep.

Passing time in KLIA

I think todays was a very surprising day. It started out normal just like every other day...me waking up thinking of what i want to do and where to go and eat and stuff like that when i decided to call a friend to ask him for his plans and if hes gonna go out for dinner. Well i called him a little too late cause he was already having his dinner...but then he asked me if i wanted to accompany him to KLIA, and yes that is the airport. In the beginning it really didn't occur to me that he said KLIA instead i thought he said KLCC, so i thought yeah ok why not...after all i need to get some grub right.

A little over an hour or two of waiting and he finally called to tell me that he is on his way, and a good 15 minutes later he arrived. I got in my car and he asked the silliest questions (to me its silly anyway), he started asking me if i knew how to get to KLIA, hrm...now why is he asking me how to get to the airport i thought to myself. And thats when it hit me that the destination is KLIA and not KLCC. The reason for going there was to help send a friend to the airport because she is going back to her home town in Kuching (is it kuching??? damn can't remember must be getting old).

There was a problem though, you see the friend that was flying already has a ticket but the flight was due for a night flight which is a bad thing considering that tomorrow night is the family dinner (make that tonight) and so she had to go early and try to get an earlier flight hoping that some of the people that booked their tickets never came to collect. And so we being the 'nice' people that we are, we accompanied her at the airport for 3 hours plus (I know because the parking machine told me so). Ate my dinner there (very expensive dinner i might add...and thats for KFC), walked around looking for some coffee house or cafe to no avail. Sat down at McD's and chatted until the driver got really tired before we took off.

So in the end it wasn't really too bad, the earliest flight would be about 7am, which isn't that long a wait anymore considering all the time we spent there. If she were to have waited alone from the very beginning then that would be a different story all together la. So today i had a drastic change of environment (in terms of lepak), and i made a mental note to myself...never go to the airport to spend time because everything there is just too damn fucking expensive. And to everyone...

Gong Xi Fa Chai

Fearless

I caught the latest and last kung fu movie from Jet Li late last night...For those of you who don't know, the movie is entitled "Fearless". I've got to say that was a typical Jet Li movie, what i didn't know or didn't realised was that the movie was a remake of a previously made Jet Li movie, although i can't really remember the name of that movie (I think its called "Fist of Legend"). Its really about the same person and both stories are based on a true story about 1 guy beating the crap out of them foreigners.

What i really really liked about the show was how he used many forms of martial arts to display his prowess...not like we don't already know la right, but regardless i think it was interesting to see almost everything if not everything being displayed. Of course it wasn't displayed all at the same time la, Mainly he used more fists techniques (you know like all his movies kinda style la)...other then that they were some really nice utilizations of weapons and some funky swordsplay. And of course what would a Jet Li movie be without the infamous Tai Chi.

Because this is suppose to be his LAST kung fu movie (yeah well...thats what they all say la right, we'll see) i really liked the way it ended, of course i'm not gonna spoil the story for all those that haven't been able to watch it yet la. But the one thing that i really have to complain is...The translation really sucks, being a 'Banana man' i have to read subtitles...but seriously i think i was better of listening to what they were saying. The really slack part about the translation is they don't translate the chinese characters during the intro and the end of the movie...thats why i had to ask some chinese speaking/reading friend to tell me what the hell those words at the end of the movie meant...And thats also how i finally found out that it is based on a true story. All in all if you're a real martials arts freak like me then i'd recommend the movie, its rather entertaining that way other then that you'd probably be better off avoiding paying for it...especially if you can't read chinese.

The 3 letters that gave me relief

I received three emails yesterday all of which made me a rather relieved man, one was that my unimpressive and crappy resume was submitted to a company that i have to find out what and therefore i can expect some interviews to come soon, which also means that i am gonna start working soon...oh how i dread the future. But its all good i even have a master plan laid out with that i'm gonna do with the whatever i'm gonna earn, hope its not too little. I'll decide on what i wanna get first when i find out how much i'm gonna get....cheh, make it sound like i damn sure i'm gonna fucking get the job like that, hell i don't even know whether i'd like it or not. Oh well like it or not i guess i have to start somewhere, i mean its not like everyday that you get to choose what kinda job you wanna take, considering that i am a fresh grad...a very old one too, lol!!!

The second email was a few words of encouragement from a dear dear friend who lives pretty far away. Well, thanks alot for them encouragement, i hope i don't disappoint anyone anytime soon...actually i think that that is not as important as disappointing myself la, so i better wake up and get my lazy ass off whatever i'm doing and put some heart into doing what i need to do and when i need to do. So i guess right now i'll just bid whatever free time i have left until that fine day when the weekends are like diamonds...hahaha. Oh come one i'm sure many of you would agree with me that once you actually start working you don't really have a life anymore and seem to have less and less time for the things that you used to do. Well if you don't agree with me then you suck!!! :P

The third and final letter was a major relieve for me, you see a few days ago a friend of mine was very down and all of a sudden all contact that i've had with that person has been severed. Well at least thats what i thought la, and so i got really worried because i was afraid that that friend of mine would do something stupid...fortunately though i was wrong la, phew!!! That was one hell of a relief i tell you...Oh well looks i just enjoy to get all worked up huh??? Well i'm glad that my friend is now ok, at least thats the impression that i got la anyway...I'm sure that things will work out for that friend of mine, so in the mean time just sit back relax and take a deep breath before taking a step forward. As for what i did, well sleep whole day woke up to WoW and got nothing accomplished...Again!!! and thats practically bout it, hell i didn't even leave the house till about 2am, and now i'm so damn freaking tired so i think i'll go to sleep.

As i prepare to venture forward

Wah busy busy again...well still free enough to blog and play WoW la. You see i have been pressured left, right, center, inside, outside, up and down to get a job so ok lor i started sending out my so very unimpressive resume lor with the help of my best friends auntie also lor. And because i don't wanna be slacking for too long letting my mind rot from too much WoW, i had to step up a notch in terms of WoW la so that i can faster get it off my mind then i can concentrate on other more important areas that i should put my mind to lor. Thank god today is actually what we call the weekly maintenance day where the server goes down and theres a whole lot of free time to do whatever shit that needs to be done, like going out to catch some sun...lol. Yeah i got that from one fella in WoW tell you all about it next time.

But then right i quite the scarred of working also la, i mean i've actually been into the corporate world before already albeit for a very short 6 months but nevertheless its still and experience all together la. And frankly speaking i'm not very sure i'm absolutely ready for it la you know. But i mean i have to do it sooner or later what right so i guess its best now then never la, besides i'm not getting any younger and its already a problem as it is because i'm so freaking old and i've been slacking for a damn fucking long time, so yeah i should get my ass of to work. Doesn't really matter where or what i do la right after all we all have to start somewhere, the important thing is getting some money and most importantly getting the work experience what. So yeah la i guess a new chapter in my life is about to unfold, i wonder what dangers await me.....

Nothing much...back to routine.

Aargh!!! I fucking woke up late today!!! dammit there goes my plan of paying my internet bill....hrm, but then again i was sure someone was suppose to give me a wake up call so that we could go settle somethings considering it was 'HIS' off day. Oh well doesn't really matter i'm so damn fucking free anyway, one day won't really make that much of a difference. Well now that i have much more free time to myself i have once again taken started to play a lot of WoW. I mean after all i'm already so close to maxing out my levels its only a matter of time before that is done, so i'm thinking that before next tuesday that goal would be achieved...thats realistic enough.

The past weekend proved to have been very very busy and interesting for me though. I was mostly out of the house for the past 1 and half weeks (or more) because i was constantly going out with my best friend, which is all good...i think it some ways it is alot healthier then just sitting down and playing WoW everyday for endless of hours. I've also managed to bump into an old friend of mine from when i used to work in BMG, so that was good...hahaha, had loads of fun and laughter with the constant poking of fun into each other. Maybe i'll tell you all about in another story cause its already kinda getting late and i'd need to wake up early to go pay the damn bill.

Random Ramblings

Man life suddenly becomes so boring the moment the internet goes down...Fortunately though i've been pretty busy with lotsa stuff to do and theres still so much left over to do. But then all my usual procrastinating is starting to kick in already, and thats gonna be really bad. On the plus side my mom already gave me the thumbs up on my car...now all that needs to be settled is the car loan and then the order can be placed and mom will send the money, woohoo!!!

New Year coming soon already and i still don't have my new year clothes, hrm...will all the people flooding towards 1U lately, i really wouldn't wanna go shop anyway. I'm not too worried about the jam and getting a carpark and all that cause technically my house is near enough for me to walk there. Mainly the problem is the place is like so damn fucking packed that its like a chore just to buy clothes for the new year. Thankfully though i don't shop here...mwahahaha, and my new year clothes should be on the way back from the States. Problem is it won't arrive till after new year....well so much for calling it new year clothes then, hahaha.

2 more hours till i have to start my journey to the airport....sigh my best friend is leaving already, so fast. Great now what am i gonna do at night? Internet is down so i can't WoW, hell i can't even blog let alone play games. I've practically read everything i can get my hands on in the house...and no i'm not gonna buy myself a new book just for the sake of entertaining myself just because i can't go online and i'm bored. Maybe i'll go touch up on my CV...haven't updated that in awhile, wait come to think the last time i saw my CV was right after my second year in Uni. Its funny sometimes like how we complain that its so boring but theres just so much to do? I wonder why we're weird that way.

Connection is down....Again.

Crap my line is down...well not down as in i can't come online but more like i haven't paid the bill for my account so i can't come online. I didn't even know about it cause i haven't seen the bill in months. Then suddenly yesterday while i was surfing my connection died and i was trouble shooting the whole of yesterday...dammit and just when i was about to blog too. So anyway i had to try to log on using my tennants PC and then i realised that the bill hasn't been paid. To confirm it i had asked my dad about it this morning and he said yeah he forgot to pay or something like that, so now i won't be able to come online during the night. Why only during the night cause thats when my tennant is at home and he'd probably wanna use his comp....great, just fan fucking tastic. My dad says he's gonna get it resolved next week, so looks like i'm not gonna be online again...Fuck.

Busy busy busy

With this i conclude a very busy weekend...well almost anyway. Yes i've been really busy running up and down, i haven't actually stayed home long enough to do anything in the pass few days. And seriously for all you doubters out there my WoW would prove it to you that i really haven't been in...Gawd and just when i'm so close to max level i get all busy. I'm still pretty much really busy have to go down to Padang Jawa to do my friends international license, well i'm going for the sake of seeing how it works cause i'm gonna have to do it soon for my mom. Looks like theres been some activity going on around here sinve i've been missing these couple of days...anyway the only reason why i have time now is cause i'm clearing my hdd, come to think of it i've been clearing it since like 2pm this afternoon....damn!!! i just realised that have a whole ton of shit that i had to do that i've been putting aside, oh so typical of me.

Another reason why i can't really get online is cause my router modem fried, hrm...have i mentioned this yet? Well anyways was out yesterday shopping for my new networking toys and spend a whopping RM235 on a modem and a wireless router. But i'm really happy with it though, managed to set the whole thing up late last night and i'm just running it temporarily with basic settings until i get more time to properly tweak the settings. I also have to start reorganizing my room and reposition some of my stuff in a more accessible area. My best friend has suggested that maybe i should change the position of where i placed my modem and router which currently sits on top of my subwoofer, why leh? Because a possibility to why my connection is crappy could be a result of magnetic inteference that my woofer is causing, which actually makes some sense...Although it has never really bothered me before, at least i don't think it has but i guess theres no harm trying right. Now i have a dilemma on where am i gonna place my gundams...and with at least one more coming in right after chinese new year, i'm really gonna have a problem with space. Ok gotta get back to my other duties right now...sigh, work!!!

Cyborg Name

Wow got cyborg name wan...anyway i got this from Wimal, and i tried la some of my nicknames and my real name of course. Quite the farnee also right!!! hahaha!!!

Yelling Replicant!!??? Am i really so obnoxi

Nocturnal Education...hrm, i'm in for the nocturnal part la, its true anyway. Education leh, well not really a big fan of it...lol.

Huh??? Of what and of what???

Oooohhh!!! I'm a wanna be hacker!!! I think at one point in time this was definately me.

As much as i'd like to see what the hell would come out when i put in 'E²' but unfortunately i get a response that says 'Names must have at least 2 letters. Please enter another name.' So i guess i can't use that. If it would work i think it'd probably come out something like Exploration to the power of two....hahahaha!!! Man this thing is cool....After all i really do love robots and cyborgs and stuff like that, hrm....guess i owe all to my love for science fiction.

Need to find something new

Eh i damn bored la recently, everyday doing the same old shit...i mean i'm sure that theres more to life then just WoW, eat, sleep and yum cha (which is basically all i do everyday). Well WoW is all great and stuff la, i'm enjoying myself playing my own game at my own pace...but after awhile you just need a break. And if you're like me sometimes you take time off the reflect on what you've been doing for the pass...i don't know months??? And you'll realize that i haven't actually done much...in terms of growth, well there definately has been alotta growth in my WoW character la, but personal 'real-life' growth has been so stagnant that suddenly if this is all there is to life then i might as well just end it.

With that said i think i need to find myself some new activities, am i however still looking for a job. Nothing big really....but am i picky about what kind of a job, then again i think everyone is picky about what kinda jobs they wanna take. After all thats what you're gonna be doing for a long time so i guess that everyone has every right to be picky about it. Then there was that gundam model stuff i was talking about a month back...while its all good and shit, to buy a model would seriously give me a major dent into my wallet. Hey come to think of it, it already has a major dent....lol. Yeah so you get what i'm trying to say right....Anyways so what should i pick up that doesn't cost much (doesn't cost much meaning close to 0) and at the same time would be fulfilling...you tell me?

My internet connection is a girl

Now that my best friend is back from Cambodia i've been pretty much busy again, not busy enough to not blog but due to the situation with my damn router getting fried i can only afford to let one pc go online at a time. Considering that the line is currently being shared by two people, its proving to be very difficult between what needs to be done first and shit like that...Sigh, i really need to get a new router. Oh and just incase you guys don't know it was actually a router modem, so right now my home network has been downgraded to just modem...so no network. Was checking reviews and prices online about a day or two ago, and i can't find any impressive router modems out there. Its either router as in just routing capabilities which of course can be connected to a adsl modem, or router modem. Price difference would be about the same actually...but i don't know what i should get right now, really caught in a dilemma. But i think i wanna settle for a router and a modem, that way at least if shit like this happens again the best case scenario (well 2nd best actually) would be that i just replace the modem...and worst case scenario is everything fries. Why don't you guys suggest what i should do.

Speaking of networking, i kinda figured that my internet connection is weird....if it had a gender i would dare say that it has got to be a female. Why leh? well simply because it acts as though it has mood swings....you know like 'Oh its that time of the month' and then the connection becomes fucked up. How fucked up? Lets see, inconsistant response time, lag spikes, lag, disconnects...you name it. But then when its all happy and shit, the connection is as smooth as a babys ass....Like girl la!!!hehehe. No but really its really acts that way, previously it was even weirder. It used to stop all traffic, be it incoming or outgoing everytime i leave the pc. Simply put its like oh Eugenes not around...damn i'm lonely, oh well i'll just sulk in one corner and forsake all my tasks of downloading. And when i get back my downloads practically didn't even move. Worst still the only way to fix the problem is by resetting the modem entirely and only then will it work again. But once i leave for an extended period of time, the same shit happens all over again...I have no idea what is wrong and until today i've never met a single person who can help me with these problems that i'm facing. Do you know whats wrong?

I'm very disappointed in you.

Well woman if you're reading this then you'd definately know that i'm talking bout you...A sorta made it a point to not directly put names on my posts, unless its a no big deal kinda thing. So what happened??? I kena FFK...and not just this once, but MANY times and not just this year but MANY YEARS and still running. You know ar if you really did want me to go down and find you...you could have just asked, but nooooo!!! see now you're really pushing it cause i'm already starting to blindly think of booking my ticket to Belfast to haul you're sorry ass out just to catch up. Phew now that that is off my chest, i feel a whole lot better....lol. Well girl you know i'm just kidding right, hehehe.

Yesterday kinda confirm that i really don't have a good start into the new year, why??? Well due to the thunderstorm that we experiencing late yesterday, i could now safely say that my Wireless router modem has been pronounced 'dead'. Yes in the unfortunate event that occured last night i wasn't able to save my dear and loyal friend from certain death. Oh well looks like i have to go shop for a new one....after all gotta move on right, hahahaha!!! But yeah i was so bored because now only one comp can go online at a time (And my tennant was using the line the whole of last night) that i practically slept the entire of yesterday...Gawd i'm such a pig!!! Anyways you guys out there got any suggestions on what to get??? I'm kinda too lazy to do my research...maybe i should get that gaming router since i play so much games...hrm, heard its a bit too expensive though.

So tired and so frustrated

Now just when i thought that i had nothing to do, something decides to pop up...how frustrating is that? I ended up over sleeping last night because my sleep was interrupted earlier in the day, and just because of that i fuckin ended up waking up at fucking 11...and thats 11PM!! Yeah la i know la i don't do anything mar, so should really bother me mar right....but i didn't get to eat my dinner, was so damn hungry that i had to open my 'Emergency Rations'. Come to think of it i think i'm running a little bit low on them rations...lol. So anyway, i'm already getting a little tired and sleepy but i have to stay awake till about 10 or 11 so that i can wake my tennant up else he won't make it to work (Hrm, maybe i shouldn't bother him...serves him right for staying up until so late, huehuehue...jk :P). At least thats the initial plan la...until just now when my dad told me to wait around the house or be in the house at about 3PM because some guys are gonna come to check on the parquet staircase which has been ruined thanks to some termites. Well at least i think it was termites.

Now how in tarnation am i gonna stay awake until 3PM...i'm already gonna collapse and i'm running out of movies to see. Well there is WoW, but that isn't really gonna help as well because i've almost run out of things to do in game anyway. Sigh think i'll just have to find some way to keep myself awake...i wish i had some caffeine pills with me now, that would really help, hehehe. On to other things...remember i was saying that i had to do a program for my uncle, well i'm really getting a headache over his demands man. He expects me to conjure searching techniques and algorithms out of thin air i tell you...crazy. I mean yeah la i've learnt them before (Although i think i've thrown my notes away...eep) but i never understood the damn thing in the first place how much more implementing them. So now that i've reach a block my brain just decided to switch off and i'm not progressing in the damn program. Looks like i'm gonna be needing help on this one...shit and i swore that i'd never do programming ever again, yeah and look how that turned out, fuck!!!

I am....Juicy???

Everytime my best friend comes back from Australia, i start meeting people that happen to be in Malaysia that i only meet when my best friend is around...Of course i know all this people la, its just i don't meet them otherwise la. So now its kinda like a customary every year meet. So anyway i went out for drinks with my best friend, his girlfriend, a few other friends (that i meet regularly) and one of those 'i only see you once a year kinda friend' which happens to be a girl. Now this girl right she damn not shy wan, from the first time i met her right...i have never heard her say something nice about me, always poking fun at me (Not that i'm really complaining or anything la). So right we were having drinks and shit when someone (can't remember who) asked me what the hell am i gonna be doing after that.

Usually when someone asks me that and i don't have a plan or anything i would normally curl my hand to a fist and start shaking my hand up and down...You know what i mean right hehehe *grin*. But its all in good fun la, but somehow everytime i do that everyone seem to believe me...Why ar??? Oh well, nevermind...Moving along, so this girl was like saying 'Oh yeah i believe you.' and then she went on further and said 'You may be small...But i know you're juicy."!!! WTF!!!??? What does juicy mean??? Is that a good thing or a bad thing??? How can i be juicy, i can't be eaten so how can i be juicy!!??? Oh well it was all in good fun anyway...but i'm still thinking what the hell does that mean?

The Plan for 2006

Ok here are the few things that i need to get done this year...so yeah you could say that this is my new years resolution.

• Need to graduate my sorry ass.
• Need to get a job.
• Need to stop smoking (Same as last year...don't worry you'll see this again next year).

And thats practically about it...i concluded that making ridiculously long resolutions are always bound to failure. Too many things to do, too much of a hassle...so not me, lol. The first two is definately gonna happen, i just hope that i don't have to wait to long. Of course there is that every persistent car issue that needs my attention as well, but i think right now i'll just let it be and deal with it later. Eventually i'm still gonna get a car anyway, i'll just have to wait and see what car i'm gonna get....slowly but surely.

Hrm, does anyone else thinks that this year started kinda gloomy. Its been raining for what seems like forever, well not that i'm really complaining. I'd rather it be like this then hot and sunny, i can't stand the heat...I'm kinda like a vampire, the sun is like my ultimate weakness. But whatever it is i'd still have to say its rather gloomy, rain rain rain...makes you wanna sleep sleep sleep. Oh well, one things for sure...i'm sure as hell gonna start bitching when the dry season comes.

The Year in Review

Lets see...well if new years were such a big deal, then lets just say that mine started in a really crappy manner and it really turned out to be a really crappy day. But i think i'll believe more in the lunar calendar, after all got all those feng shui thing about your sign clashing with other signs and the elements and blah blah blah...well it actually sounds more believable. Besides Chinese New Year always makes a better new year, cause no matter what it'll definately be happier. Simply because we have a really fantastic dinner (well most of the time anyway), and before the night is over we get our Ang Pow's now seriously who doesn't like that.

So i decided to go out on new years after all, for a drink anyway. And since it was suppose to be a celebration i thought that we'd just go to starbucks and splurge a little. Coincidentally we met a few friends while we were hanging out there...and so our table started to get bigger and bigger, adding one to the left and adding another to the right. Hell if the rest came any earlier we would have ended up with like five to six tables in total. I didn't really bother with the countdown, so i was counting down in the car. Saw some fireworks while making our way outta my house, and on the way to starbucks as well. So lotsa friends chit chatting on new years day having good ol coffee...now what could be so possibly bad???

For starters my mom had finally agreed to buy me a car, and i really really really liked the car. But you see the car has to be funded by my uncle, and he was like 'eh don't buy that car la, not good la that car...you buy that car ar then you won't be able to sell next time, and besides thats a playboy car.' blah blah blah blah blah...Well fuck you too. Seriously la, what makes you think i'm gonna buy a second hand car only to sell it off in like what 1 year? You crazy ar? As if i had so much many to throw around. Hello i only have a limited amount of funds wei!!! what fucking car you expect me to get? With the amount of money i have any car that i can buy would have no value the moment i want to sell it, so what the fuck is the big deal of what car i wanna get...its all gonna be the same thing and i can't sell it anyway. Gawd can you believe the stupidity of some people.

The after that there was the news of a death in my buddy's family, now that was just utterly shocking. I didn't know anything, never heard of anything about it and suddenly death decides to come and claim lives. But thats the way life is nothing you can do about it...like i once said, the one fate that is shared by all man is death. Yeah so theres nothing i can do about it but nevertheless it is sad news and i can't help but to feel down because of it.

The supposed one good news of the year which eventually didn't turn out right wasn't really any good either...why??? Well because it didn't turn out right...lol. So what was that suppose to be? Well my graduation of course. Because i fucked up...and i mean fucked up big time, i didn't manage to graduate at the end of last year which was planned, but instead i grad sometime in the middle of this year, thanks to all my procrastinating...well i'm to blame for that la, that one i definately agree and i'm not gonna point my finger at anyone else. I should have done what was set out for me, but i didn't and in the end i had to pay the price....no question about it. So yeah, but i still can't help but to feel that its fucked up and i wanna bitch about it, so there you go.

Then there was the part where i wasn't able to quit smoking...hahaha, well yeah i kinda saw that one coming. Although i'd definately quit one fine day, just need to find the right time and circumstances. Don't tell me bout it cause i really really don't wanna hear about what you have to say about my bad habits. Of course you guys would have remembered how i said i had set a goal for myself to achieve in WoW by the end of the month (December 2005) right, well that didn't work out as well. Gawd damn!!! everything isn't working out is it??? We gotta work on that.

Of course the biggest event of the year 2005 was filled with heartache and sorrow, after a long...hrm, make that very long cool down period i came back into the game only to get burned, fortunately though i don't think it was as bad as the last time but i won't lie it still hurt. As a matter of fact it hurt like HELL!!! It hurt so much that i lost all motivation to do anything, and that damn stupid effect has lingered in me till this very day and that really sucks. But once again i'm not blaming anyone but myself and my own stupidity, after all in more ways then one i did bring many of these things unto myself no doubt about that. After carefully analysing most of the situation the biggest culprit of them all is myself and my own short commings. The one thing that really ruined my day on new years was that of all people that i had to bump into i had to bump into the one person i didn't wanna see the most...'Her'! And because of that one reason my entire new year was screwed two times over.

Phew...well, glad i had that off my chest. I think i'll continue tomorrow with my new years resolution, althought i have never really abide by it or anything. Hrm, i wonder why the hell do i even make one? Can anyone out there tell me if there was a single resolution that they have yet fulfilled? If yes, please tell me the secret...Well to sum it all off, another year has passed and everything can begin anew. Hrm, what i really don't understand about that is that why must we start anew after every year. Whats the difference with starting all over after just a day??? Oh well guess we'll have to wait and see.