Monday, January 02, 2006

The Year in Review

Lets see...well if new years were such a big deal, then lets just say that mine started in a really crappy manner and it really turned out to be a really crappy day. But i think i'll believe more in the lunar calendar, after all got all those feng shui thing about your sign clashing with other signs and the elements and blah blah blah...well it actually sounds more believable. Besides Chinese New Year always makes a better new year, cause no matter what it'll definately be happier. Simply because we have a really fantastic dinner (well most of the time anyway), and before the night is over we get our Ang Pow's now seriously who doesn't like that.

So i decided to go out on new years after all, for a drink anyway. And since it was suppose to be a celebration i thought that we'd just go to starbucks and splurge a little. Coincidentally we met a few friends while we were hanging out there...and so our table started to get bigger and bigger, adding one to the left and adding another to the right. Hell if the rest came any earlier we would have ended up with like five to six tables in total. I didn't really bother with the countdown, so i was counting down in the car. Saw some fireworks while making our way outta my house, and on the way to starbucks as well. So lotsa friends chit chatting on new years day having good ol coffee...now what could be so possibly bad???

For starters my mom had finally agreed to buy me a car, and i really really really liked the car. But you see the car has to be funded by my uncle, and he was like 'eh don't buy that car la, not good la that car...you buy that car ar then you won't be able to sell next time, and besides thats a playboy car.' blah blah blah blah blah...Well fuck you too. Seriously la, what makes you think i'm gonna buy a second hand car only to sell it off in like what 1 year? You crazy ar? As if i had so much many to throw around. Hello i only have a limited amount of funds wei!!! what fucking car you expect me to get? With the amount of money i have any car that i can buy would have no value the moment i want to sell it, so what the fuck is the big deal of what car i wanna get...its all gonna be the same thing and i can't sell it anyway. Gawd can you believe the stupidity of some people.

The after that there was the news of a death in my buddy's family, now that was just utterly shocking. I didn't know anything, never heard of anything about it and suddenly death decides to come and claim lives. But thats the way life is nothing you can do about it...like i once said, the one fate that is shared by all man is death. Yeah so theres nothing i can do about it but nevertheless it is sad news and i can't help but to feel down because of it.

The supposed one good news of the year which eventually didn't turn out right wasn't really any good either...why??? Well because it didn't turn out right...lol. So what was that suppose to be? Well my graduation of course. Because i fucked up...and i mean fucked up big time, i didn't manage to graduate at the end of last year which was planned, but instead i grad sometime in the middle of this year, thanks to all my procrastinating...well i'm to blame for that la, that one i definately agree and i'm not gonna point my finger at anyone else. I should have done what was set out for me, but i didn't and in the end i had to pay the price....no question about it. So yeah, but i still can't help but to feel that its fucked up and i wanna bitch about it, so there you go.

Then there was the part where i wasn't able to quit smoking...hahaha, well yeah i kinda saw that one coming. Although i'd definately quit one fine day, just need to find the right time and circumstances. Don't tell me bout it cause i really really don't wanna hear about what you have to say about my bad habits. Of course you guys would have remembered how i said i had set a goal for myself to achieve in WoW by the end of the month (December 2005) right, well that didn't work out as well. Gawd damn!!! everything isn't working out is it??? We gotta work on that.

Of course the biggest event of the year 2005 was filled with heartache and sorrow, after a long...hrm, make that very long cool down period i came back into the game only to get burned, fortunately though i don't think it was as bad as the last time but i won't lie it still hurt. As a matter of fact it hurt like HELL!!! It hurt so much that i lost all motivation to do anything, and that damn stupid effect has lingered in me till this very day and that really sucks. But once again i'm not blaming anyone but myself and my own stupidity, after all in more ways then one i did bring many of these things unto myself no doubt about that. After carefully analysing most of the situation the biggest culprit of them all is myself and my own short commings. The one thing that really ruined my day on new years was that of all people that i had to bump into i had to bump into the one person i didn't wanna see the most...'Her'! And because of that one reason my entire new year was screwed two times over.

Phew...well, glad i had that off my chest. I think i'll continue tomorrow with my new years resolution, althought i have never really abide by it or anything. Hrm, i wonder why the hell do i even make one? Can anyone out there tell me if there was a single resolution that they have yet fulfilled? If yes, please tell me the secret...Well to sum it all off, another year has passed and everything can begin anew. Hrm, what i really don't understand about that is that why must we start anew after every year. Whats the difference with starting all over after just a day??? Oh well guess we'll have to wait and see.

2 comments:

juli said...

suppose your new years wasnt that great... hmm... oh well, it's time to move on and chinese new year's coming - i love it too! it's way better than the overrated new year - so much good food and just being with the family is simply nice.

cheer up, eugene. chinese new year's coming!

=)

said...

Juli: yay!!! someone agrees with me...hehehe. Don't worry i'm not the type to stay moody too long, just wanted to get it off my chest numsayin ;)